Encwadini yenoveli ezayo kaCathy Wang, I-Imposter Syndrome, inhloli yaseRussia ikhuphuka idlulele embonini yezobuchwepheshe ukuze ibe yi-COO e-Tangerine (i-Google riff), kuyilapho omunye wabangaphansi kwakhe ethola ukuba sengozini kwezokuphepha, ezimisele ngokudlala. Incwadi ifika emashalofini ngoMeyi 25, kodwa i-EW izobe yabelana ngezahluko zokuqala eziyisikhombisa kuphela kuwebhusayithi yethu ngezingxenye ezintathu. Funda isiqephu sokuqala esingezansi.
Noma nini lapho uLev Guskov ehlangana nomuntu othakazelisayo, wayethanda ukubuza abazali bakhe imibuzo. Uma impendulo ihlakaniphile, uyobhala inothi, futhi uma ecabanga ukuthi uzodlulela phambili, uyoqinisekisa ukuthi incwadi yomlando womkhaya walowo oxoxwayo iyaqedwa. Nakuba uLeo engakholelwa ukuthi abazali abahle bayadingeka emsebenzini okhiqizayo. Eqinisweni, emsebenzini wakhe, abazali ababi bavame ukuba yizimpawu zempumelelo. Ukuqashelwa kusenesikhathi kobunzima, ukunqoba le ntaba yokudumazeka nokwesaba, inkonzo, ukwethembeka kanye nesifiso sokweqa okulindelwe, uma kuphela ukuvunyelwa okwanqatshwa ngaphambili.
Lapho ehlezi khona manje, ehholo lenyuvesi osebeni loMfula iMoskva, uLev uzungezwe abazali bakhe (kokubili okuhle nokubi). Wayekhathele, evumela izikhalazo ezingenanjongo ukuthi zihlele impilo yaseMoscow: umgwaqo iMoscow Ring Road wabambezeleka ngamahora amabili, ukhukhamba ezibizayo ezitolo zegrosa, udokotela wesikhumba ongenangqondo emtholampilo kahulumeni owenqaba ukulala kuze kube sebusuku futhi ahlolwe ngokomzimba - yakhe With alcohol on. umoya wakhe, wathi kufanele athathe isidlo sasemini ekhaya. Kwadingeka ngife ngoba umkakhe wayengenakukwazi ukuba umsizi wasendlini. …?
Eminyakeni embalwa edlule, u-Leo wayesesiteji ekamelweni elifanayo nomama wakhe emgqeni ongemuva ephethe ama-tulips. Ngemva kwesonto, wafika ebhilidini likakhonkolo elinezitezi ezingamashumi amabili enkabeni yeMoscow ngosuku lwakhe lokuqala emsebenzini. Endaweni yokwamukela izivakashi kukhona uqwembe lwethusi olunombhalo wokuqala: SPb. I-National Security Service. Inhloko yezinkonzo ezikhethekile ezintathu ezinkulu zaseRussia.
Kufudumele manje ngaphandle, okusho ukuthi ihholo selizofinqa. Uzakwethu u-Leo kwi-inning yesishiyagalombili, u-Pyotr Stepanov, wagxumela kwesokudla sakhe. UPeter wayemude futhi ezacile, futhi esihlalweni esincanyana wayefana nommese, izingalo zakhe ezisikiwe nemilenze egoqiwe kushutheke kahle emkhathini. “Kwenzenjani ngalokhu?” Kubuza uPeter, enyakazisa ngezandla, nakuba uLeo wayeseyazi ukuthi usho ukuthini. Izinwele ezimhlophe ngaphambili, ezifika okhalweni.
"Ubucabanga ukuthi bengiphenya ubuso nje?" UPetru wayebukeka ecasukile. “Bheka umbala wakhe.” Kubhekiselwa ebhandeni eliluhlaza okwesibhakabhaka neliphuzi emahlombe akhe. U-Leo ukuphethe ebhokisini eshalofini eliphezulu ekhabetheni lakhe.
“O, yeka indoda elula.” UPetru wancika phambili. “Khona-ke amathuba anda. Laphaya, ikhanda elibomvu kwesokudla. Ubukeka engcono kuno blonde, futhi nangaphansi kwaleyo ngubo exegayo usengamtshela ukuthi unomzimba oqinile.” U-Leo wabona i-redhead okokuqala ngesikhathi esilandelayo lapho ngingena futhi ngamqaphela ngezizathu ezifanayo uPeter, nakuba engazange asho kanjalo. NgoLwesihlanu olwedlule, njengoba elungiselela ukuphuma emsebenzini, uPeter wamnxenxela “esitobhini esisheshayo” endaweni yokucima ukoma yehhotela, lapho uLeo aphuza khona isiphuzo esishibhile, ibhodlela lamanzi amaminerali aseGeorgia, futhi uPeter wayenamahloni ngokudangala. ukudonsa ngamanethi. U-Leo wabuyela ekhaya phakathi kwamabili, ngandlela-thile esadakiwe, wathola intombi yakhe uVera Rustamova ekhishini. UVera uyintatheli yeqembu lezindaba likahulumeni iCentral Media of Russia (RCM). Unezwi le-anchor yezindaba, elijulile nelithambile, angakwazi ukulishuna libe amathoni aphikisayo. “Cha, hhayi yena.”
“Yini, akukuhle ngokwanele? Uma ufuna okuthile okwengeziwe, angazi noma kufaneleka yini ukuzingela emnyangweni wesayensi yamakhompyutha.”
UPetru wacabanga ngakho. “Ngakho ufuna ukuba yisiphukuphuku nokuba mubi, akunjalo? Angazi ukuthi wenzani, kodwa ngokuzayo uzongihambisa ohambweni lwakho lokuyohlola.”
ULeo akakuzwanga okunye. Umema u-Peter ukuthi abe nomphakathi nje, ahlanganyele izaba zokuphuma ehhovisi - u-Leo akanayo ingcindezi encane yokuqasha njengoba enze kahle kulo nyaka futhi wanyusa amafa amaningi. Omunye u-Bashkir futhi usaqeqeshwa, kuyilapho abanye ababili beyizelamani ezikhuthele: umfowabo omdala ungumpheki ophumelelayo futhi manje usebenza ehhotela laseLondon elivame ukuvakashela ama-royals aseSaudi, kanti udadewabo usebenzela ummeli eSt. ULeo uvuke ekuseni ephanjanelwa yikhanda wacishe wangalinge ukuza.
Kodwa manje uyajabula ngokuthi wenze umzamo. Ngemuva kwesigcawu: umugqa wesine ukusuka kwesokunxele. Izinwele ezithambile ezinsundu, isikhumba esiphaphathekile, namehlo amancane, ahlabayo amnyama kumnikeza ukubukeka okunonya. Singakanani isikhathi esidlulile? Iminyaka eyisishiyagalolunye? eziyishumi? Nokho wayemazi.
Bazibiza ngezikhungo zocwaningo, kodwa empeleni zingamakhaya ezintandane, izindawo zokuhlala zezingane ezingafunwa. Izakhiwo ezinkulu ezisezingeni eliphansi ezinezinsimbi ezigqwalile nokhaphethi abafadalale, amabhuzu asindayo namathrekhi ezihlalo zabakhubazekile phansi, abanikazi bazo abeve eshumini nambili besebenzisa imishini efana nabashwibi. Iningi lalezi zikhungo zitholakala emadolobheni amakhulu futhi kwesinye isikhathi emaphethelweni amadolobha amakhulu. U-Leo wahlangana no-Yulia okokuqala ohambweni oluya komunye wabo.
Wayefuna umfana. Omdala, okunzima ngoba abafana bavame ukutholwa besebancane uma benamandla. Lo msebenzi ubucayi futhi ubalulekile, uhilela inxusa laseCanada nomkakhe. Bangabantu abesaba uNkulunkulu, ikakhulukazi inkosikazi, eyaveza inhloso yayo yokubathola ngaphambi kokuba babuyele unomphela e-Ottawa: bephendula ubizo lukaNkulunkulu futhi benikeza imiphefumulo engafunwa elinye ithuba.
Izingane zibizelwe egumbini elijwayelekile ngumqondisi wesikhungo, umhlengikazi okhubazekile uMaria, ongazange atholakale iminyaka yakhe. U-Leo ucela u-Maria ukuthi ayale wonke umuntu ukuthi azethule futhi aphinde umusho osencwadini ayintandokazi yakhe.
Ngokudlala kwesishiyagalolunye, ukunaka kukaLeo kwaqala ukushintsha. Walondoloza isimo sobuso bakhe, wagcina ebheke emehlweni, futhi wagxilisa ukunaka kwakhe ngokugcwele njengoba umuntu ayembheka njengothembisayo kakhulu eya phambili, umfana onezinwele zotshani ezazikhule zafika esifubeni sikaLeo.
“Igama lami nginguPavel,” waqala umfana. “Incwadi engiyithanda kakhulu ngelendoda eblue. Unemisipha futhi uyakwazi ukundiza.” UPavel wavala amehlo akhe njengokungathi uveza izithombe. “Angisakhumbuli nelilodwa igama.”
Wathi esezohamba uLeo wezwa ukuthintwa waphenduka wabheka lentombazane. Wayemfushane, enezinkophe ezacile ezilenga ezihlathini ezitshekayo kanye nekhala eliyisicaba, amashiya awugqinsi futhi angalawuleki amnikeza ukubukeka okuphambene. “Ungangiyisa lapho.
“Bengifuna enye into namuhla,” kusho uLeo, ngaphakathi ebobotheka njengoba ebona sengathi ubhusha wenqaba iqatha lenyama. “Uxolo. Mhlawumbe esikhathini esizayo".
“Ngingaphila,” esho enganyakazi. “Ngikuthakasela kakhulu ukwenza umsebenzi omuhle. Ngeke ngisho ukuthi uPawulu wenzani. Uqinisile ukumshiya.”
Amjabulile ngamazwi akhe. “UPavel akuyena yedwa umfana” “Ubamba isibhakela uma ugxilise ingqondo. Ukwenze ekuqaleni lapho uSophia encike etiyeni. Ubegqoka lelo jezi kuphela uma sinezivakashi, uyazi.”
Ngokuphazima kweso, u-Leo welula isandla sakhe ngemuva. Wadedela kancane ezizwa enokubhuqa. Waguqa wahleba wathi, “Uthe ungakwenza, kodwa awazi ukuthi hlobo luni lomsebenzi engiwubuzayo.”
"Ubani igama lakho?" Wabona uSophia, owesifazane odumile we-V-neck, ehamba eduze, eqaphile futhi enethemba; wayazi ukuthi idinga amadoda, kodwa kungakhathaliseki ubulili, isikhungo sanxeshezelwa ngayo yonke ingane eyatholwa yi-Eighth Bureau.
Kwedlula isithunzi ebusweni bakhe. “Bengilapha impilo yami yonke,” walungisa umphimbo wakhe. “Uyazi, nami ngiyakwazi ukucula.”
“Ungakwenzi. Ayikho indlela engalungile yokwenza ezinye izilimi. Empeleni kuwumbono omuhle kakhulu.” Wasukuma wangabaza wambambatha ikhanda. "Mhlawumbe sizokubona kamuva."
Wathatha isinyathelo esincane futhi wenqaba ngobuhlakani ukuthinta kwakhe. "Nini?" “Angazi. Mhlawumbe ngonyaka ozayo. Noma okulandelayo."
Manje bahlezi ubuso nobuso ekamelweni elingemva kwesitolo sezingxenye zemishini ze-NSA. Lena indawo ka-Leo engekho emthethweni – akekho omunye emnyangweni othanda ukuyisebenzisa, ngoba ikude, eMitino. Phakathi neminyaka edlule, uhlele kabusha isilungiselelo: wagcina isithombe somkhankaso kamongameli wamanje uma kwenzeka efika futhi engafiki, wasusa udoti kaGorbachev, nakuba ngephutha washiya iphosta eyodwa kuphela enesiliva lekhathuni eliphuza utshwala. Ububi obumelene nomzimba wakho nomphefumulo wakho bubhalwe phansi, futhi uLeo ngezikhathi ezithile uyacula, ezithela iwayini yena noVera. I-Gollum.
"Uyakhumbula ungibona?" Wanyakaza, nesihlalo sakhipha umsindo ongemnandi phansi. “Kwakukudala lokho.”
“Yebo,” kusho uJulia, futhi uLeo wazinika isikhathi sokumtadisha ngokucophelela. Ngeshwa, u-Julia akalona uhlobo lwengane evamile obuso bayo bukhula (yize kokuhlangenwe nakho kuka-Leo, osebenza kanzima akalokothi abe neminyaka eyishumi ubudala). Wayegqoke ingubo ebomvu yoboya obuqinile njengeyentombazane encane, futhi wayephethe isikhwama sokudla uLeo enuka kuso isinkwa esishisayo noshizi. Sloykas, waphakamisa. Kwaqhuma isisu.
"Ingabe kusenjena?" Nakuba ayeyazi impendulo, manje - ngemva kwesonto ethweswe iziqu - wayesenefayela eliphelele kuye.
"Futhi uyazi ukuthi i-SPB yenzani." Umbhekisise kahle, ngoba kulapho kuvela khona ingxenye yamandla akhe. Nakuba ekuqaleni bakhangwa injabulo, ukuzwa okuthile ngamagama abo angempela nezinhlamvu kwabonakala kubashukumisela ukuba bacabange kabusha. Kungakhathaliseki ukuthi basebenzela kanzima kangakanani i-SPB, bangaba kude namehlo akhe futhi izono zabo azibhalwa.
“Yebo. Manje ufunani?" Iphimbo lakhe laliqinile, sengathi umatasatasa nabantu abaningi ababezohlangana futhi baqedele inhlolokhono, nakuba uLeo wayesazi kangcono. Ukube uJulia wayethweswe iziqu nge-honours, kungenzeka ukuthi wakwazi ukuthola umsebenzi enkampanini yezokuxhumana, mhlawumbe ngisho neyamazwe ngamazwe, kodwa idiploma yakhe yasekolishi iqinisekisa ukuthi amathuba anjalo avaliwe.
“Manje akukho lutho. Udinga ukugcwalisa amaphepha ezokuphepha, uqeqeshelwe isethulo. Ngemuva kwalokho, ngicabanga ukuthi into yokuqala ezohamba phambili kuzoba ukuqeqeshwa ngezwi. ”
Kuwo wonke umsebenzi wakhe, u-Leo usebenze nenqwaba yamadoda nabesifazane abafanisa ngephutha ukuziphatha okunyanyekayo namandla. Manje wayeseyazi ukuthi kwakungcono ukuyiqeda ngaleso sikhathi leyo nkolelo. "Indlela okhuluma ngayo ayibekezeleleki."
Aqhwebe uJulia. Kwathula kwathi cwaka, wagqolozela phansi. “Uma ucabanga ukuthi ulimi lwami olukhulunywayo lubi, pho kungani ningifunela?” wagcina ebuza ekhophozela. “Ngoba akuphathelene nokubukeka kwami.”
“Ngicabanga ukuthi ungowesifazane ophikelelayo,” kusho uLeo, esebenzisa igama elithi “owesifazane” ngamabomu. “Lokho, kanye nobuciko, yilokho engikudingayo.”
“Engikwenzela umsebenzi wami wukwenza iphakethe. Iphakheji eyenziwe ngumuntu ngenjongo ethile. Ngidinga ukuthi ukholise ngaphandle kokungabaza; inkinga ayikho ezwini lakho, kodwa endleleni okhuluma ngayo. Abukho ubuhle. ukuhlala isikhathi eside kulesi sikhungo ngoba ngesikhathi siqala ukubonana kwakungekubi kangako.”
“Ngalicula lelo culo,” esho, futhi uLeo wabona ukuthi kufanele akhumbule cishe yonke imininingwane yokuxhumana kwabo kokuqala. Mhlawumbe kwase kuyiminyaka elazisa ithemba lokuthi wayezophinde avele. "ngesiNgisi."
“Yebo, nekhono lakho lolimi lihle kakhulu. Ngomqeqeshi wokuthuthukisa indlela obiza ngayo amagama, cishe usukwazi kahle. Awusoze wakuqeda ngokuphelele ukuphimisela kwakho, kodwa uzomangala ukuthi yini ongayifinyelela ngokuqeqeshwa okujulile. .”
Walinda uJulia ukuba abuze ukuthi kungani isiNgisi sibaluleke kangaka, kodwa wazibamba. “Ngitshele-ke ukuthi ngizoba umqeqeshi wezwi futhi ngizofunda kahle isiNgisi. Kuthiwani-ke?
“Mhlawumbe siyaqeqeshwa ngokudlala kahle. Azikho iziqinisekiso. Esigabeni ngasinye, ukusebenza kwakho kuyahlolwa.”
Anikine ikhanda. “Uma usulungile uzoqala isigaba esilandelayo. Sikhonze izwe lethu, ngasese, phesheya…”
“Kulungile, kuphi?” kwakukhona intshiseko ekufuneni kwakhe ukwazi. Uyingane nje, kucabanga uLeo. Udelile, kodwa useyingane.
“Singakwazi ukukhomba amadolobha ngokuhamba kwesikhathi. Sinabantu eBerkeley naseStanford. Ukuze uthole i-visa, udinga ukubhalisa ezinhlelweni zeziqu. ”
“Yini, awucabangi ukuthi i-inthanethi imnandi?” “Angilona uhlobo lomuntu olubuka ikhompuyutha usuku lonke.”
“Hhayi-ke, mhlawumbe ungangeza into yokuzilibazisa. Ibhomu entsha iyeza. Ngifuna uqale inkampani yezobuchwepheshe. Inkampani yangempela yaseSilicon Valley enendlunkulu yendawo. ”
“Yebo. Umdlali okwaziyo ukuheha abatshalizimali abahle. Abatshalizimali bazoba ukhiye, ikakhulukazi ekuqaleni. Kubo uzothola iziphakamiso ezivela kwabanye osomabhizinisi, ozakwethu - i-ecosystem yendawo, okushoyo. Ingxenye yesistimu. Silibiza ngebhuloho.” Ngaphandle kwaphuma izimpondo nokukhala kwezindawo zokwakha. Mhlawumbe i-metro, u-Leo wacabanga, yayihlale ithenjiswe ukuthi izokwakhiwa. Walinda impendulo kaJulia, ayecabanga ukuthi ilungile. Ukhumbula okokuqala ephefumula emoyeni ngaphandle kwaseSan Francisco, ubumnandi bamaphaphu akhe - washeshe wajwayela, wabe esekuthatha njengokujwayelekile waze wabuyela endizeni. Kodwa u-Julia akazange amomotheke ngokushesha noma olunye uphawu lwentshiseko, wavele wadonsa ukhololo lwakhe. Edlalisa uvolo kakotini ngezandla, amehlo akhe ewavule onke futhi ethe njo etafuleni. “Uwabonile amamaki ami,” kusho yena.
“Hmm,” ephefumula. “Khona usuyazi ukuthi anginalo ithalente. Okwesikhashana ngangicabanga ukuthi ngisho noma ngingalithandi ikilasi lami, ngingafunda ngokuzikhandla, kodwa lokho akwanele.”
U-Leo wamangala: wayengalindele ukuthi avume ukungafaneleki kwakhe. Kodwa lokho kusho ukuthi uqinisile mayelana nokufaneleka kwakhe njengempahla. Yebo, kuhle ukuba nongqondongqondo bekhompyutha, kodwa umuntu onjalo akafuni ngempela ukusebenza—noma yikuphi, abantu abangaphezulu kwesilinganiso e-US baseduze nokuba izihlakaniphi.
“Angimdingi uchwepheshe. Amakhono athile obuchwepheshe. Usebenza kanzima, usanda kungitshela ukuthi uyini."
“Cha. Uzokwenza konke lokhu. Yakha inkampani uyihole” “Kodwa besengikutshelile, ngeke ngikwazi ukuphatha ingxenye yezobuchwepheshe” “Ungakhathazeki ngayo” Ebuka iwashi lakhe. Insimbi
Isikhathi sokuthumela: Sep-15-2022